I woke up almost three hours before my first meeting at eight with no hopes of going back to sleep.
Immediately, the heavy, sinking feeling I had been experiencing surfaced. Feeling sad and in a slump, being too affected by my circumstances both close to home and afar, my mind started wandering.
I decided to begin my morning routine. I first put on today’s visualization from the 21-day challenge I started Monday.
Today’s visualization was about financial abundance. About giving and receiving. Super yummy as I visualized the children at play at their school I funded. Yesterday’s, by the way, was about international travel… going to visit that school I funded. The day before was about being surrounded by beautiful, loving friends.
I was feeling a little better already… but then my mind wandered again.
Next, I did my 10 minutes of Alchemy of Breath work which always makes me feel energized, literally buzzing and alive. But those feelings were all physical. They were helping but the sadness lingered.
I then remembered everything I had been studying and learning and just sat with the feeling instead of pushing it away. I started some inner child work and pictured my lonely, abandoned child-self sitting on my lap. I gave her a big hug and told her she is loved. I held her.
That helped.
Still not jumping out of bed to start my day, however.
I then did 10 minutes of meditation. Between the meditating and the breathwork I could feel the massive headache I woke up with (again) start to dissipate. With every exhale, I imagined and could feel the muscles in my head relax and melt into the pillow.
Still not jumping out of bed. Still wandering thoughts of heaviness.
I decided to pull two cards from the two decks sitting on my nightstand. Here was the first…
Goddess Guidance Deck: White Tara Goddess with her message, Sensitivity… “You are becoming increasingly sensitive. It’s time to avoid harsh relationships, environments, situations, and chemicals.”
I already know that about myself, but this reminder this particular morning was like a major soft slap in the face. As I was putting the deck back into the box, a second card fell out…
Goddess Guidance Deck: Rhiannon Goddess with her message, Sorceress… “You are a magical person who can manifest your clear intentions into reality… Put your energy into manifesting your dreams.”
This is what this 21-day challenge is all about. I was becoming more and more intrigued, feeling lighter by the minute. Now on to the second deck…
Daily Angel Guidance: Be Honest With Yourself: “Look into your heart and you will know the truth of the situation.”
I already know.
I then looked at the time and realized that if I was going to get in my morning sprints before my first meeting, I better get my ass out of bed. And so I did.
Quickly got dressed, feeling much better, I went out into the crisp late Spring morning.
I paused a moment to switch the playlist from my meditative one, Donna Yoga, to my Afternoon playlist which are some of my very favorites and a bit melancholy… perfect for a quiet morning stroll (who said anything about sprints?)
The very first song that came on was Amazing by One Eskimo. The song is so invigorating and moving as it is, and the timing couldn’t have been more perfect to listen to this song. My life IS amazing and I could feel it through every cell of my body as this song played as I continued my morning journey.
Next song up… Change.
Change? Really?!
Could it really just be a coincidence that these two songs came on this particular morning? That I drew these three particular cards?
Change is a newly discovered song by a band that I’ve known for decades from their hit song, No Rain. Never imaged this song coming from the same band.
As I listened to Change, I continued my visualization work… imagining my life of virtual work that I’m crazy passionate about. A life of flexibility and freedom taking that work wherever I want to go as I continue my journey, meeting beautiful souls along the way.
It feels so real, so close, so accurate so alive.
I leave you with a few lyrics from Change by Blind Melon.
“I don’t feel the suns comin’ out today
It’s staying in, it’s gonna find another way
As I sit here in this misery
I don’t think I’ll ever no ??
See the sun from here
…
When you feel your life ain’t worth living
You’ve got to stand up
And take a look around and you look way up to the sky
Yeah, and when your deepest thoughts are broken
Keep on dreaming boy, ’cause when you stop dreamin’ it’s time to die
…
And as we all play parts of tomorrow
Some ways will work and other ways we’ll play
But I know we all can’t stay here forever
So I want to write my words on the face of today
And then they’ll paint it
…
When life is hard, you have to change
When life is hard, you have to change”
P.S. The Universe didn’t stop.
After the second song, I paused the music to dictate this message I write that came to me like a download in just a few minutes. The song after Change was… Bird in a House.
Really?? This song has been with me for some years helping me with many life transitions.
“I want to sing my own song that’s all
Cried the bird and flew into a wall
There must be some way out, he cried
And his desperation echoed down the hall
…
I want to join my own kind that’s all
Cried the bird and flew into a wall
…
Just another bird in a house
Dying to get out”
~ Railroad Earth
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